Monday, October 22, 2012

CRIES OF ANGUISH

CRIES OF ANGUISH
POUR
FROM THE DEPTHS OF MY HEART
TEARS OF SADNESS
FLOOD
FROM REDDENED EYES
HOPELESSNESS SURROUNDS ME
IN WORDS SPOKEN BY MEN
WHO DO NOT KNOW......... CANNOT COMPREHEND
THE INEVITABLE THREATS OF MANY.... FALL
IN THE CORNERS OF MY MIND
LIKE NEEDLES
THAT STAB TO REMIND
MY EXISTENCE IS NOW
GRAB WHAT I CAN
AS TIME MAY BE STOLEN
WHEN LEAST EXPECTED
I FEAR OF PHYSICAL AND MENTAL PAIN
 FOR MY CHILDREN
DEATH IS FATE
IF WHILE I AM HERE I CAN REACH ,TEACH,
WORDS THAT CAN BE UNDERSTOOD
LAWS TO CHANGE
STILL I AM UNSURE OF WHY I AM STILL LIVING
REASONS ON A HIGHER PLAIN
NOT EXPLAINED TO ME ......YET
I TRAVEL MY MIND IN SEARCH OF ANSWERS
A MAGIC WAND I NEED
IN ORDER TO SUCCEED
WHY IS IT.... EVIL HAS THE UPPER POWER
WHY CANNOT LOVE AND BEAUTY REIGN?
TIME SPENT HERE...IS SMALL
AND THE REAL TEST LIES AHEAD.
OF WHICH EVILWOULD FAIL........ SURELY?


I AM REPOSTING THIS AS A FIRE BURNS WITHIN ME TO HEAL NOT JUST MY PAINS ....BUT THE PAINS OF SOOOOOOO MANY . MUCH LOVE XXX


REACH OUT SPEAK OUT !!

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

I too have been gravely affected by DV and I want to get the law changed based on my experiences. It makes me crazy angry that perpetrators of DV are pretty much rewarded for what they do and the victims are the ones who are punished. I want to do something to change that. I haven't actually done anything yet but i have an idea for change. If you think you could help me in any way then please let me know how I can get in touch with you (Facebook might be the easiest if you're interested as it would save either of us publishing our email addresses publicly). Let me know what you think...

Anonymous said...

I just want to say that your writing has affected me. I looked at the blog out of interest after reading about your son who I am following with interest from here in Spain. I hope this is your time and that things will now get better for you and your children. You writing hits home and although I was never a victim of such extremes or for so long, I can empathize and I also know that I was so full of self loathing that I didn't feel I was worth anything better. If I am honest I still cannot understand why I allowed it to happen to me. But, I did, and it is the past. I have turned to writing and education and keeping myself very busy. I wish you all the very best of luck with your blogs and I think we will be seeing a lot more of your work in the future. Please keep me informed. Jaine in Spain

EMPATHYS INSIGHTS said...

Hello Mandy, I am going to put your link on my blog and facebook. I have already highlighted your story and Jahmenes. I am so sorry you have been through all this. I do not wish to speak about myself but all I want to say is 'I understand'. Jahmene is supported fully by the UK a rare and wonderful talent and a superb credit to you for your strength and courage.

God bless you both.

Empathy.

Anonymous said...

Hi Mandy, i have just read your blog. I was asked by a family member to come on here to find an address so she could write to you. She to has been through a horrendous ordeal due to dv. She is now serving time in prison for reasons linked to it. I would be eternally grateful if she was able to write to u. I wish you and your family all the happiness in the world from here on in. The greatest of respect to you for telling your story.

sparklingnature said...

Hi Mandy im very overwhelm with your story. you and your family will be in our prayers. That God let justice shine on you. and for jahmene i wish him strength to keep singing he truly has been a great inspiration for many. That Gods protection be on you and your family.
God bless you and keep you!
Sending greeting from the caribbean islands.

Anonymous said...

Mandy, you are so brave! It really makes me boiling with anger about females are considered the minors and male come on top. They have no right to think like that! Nobody is better than others. Criminals are PAMPERED in their cells. Sky, movies, HD TV's, etc... are some of the luxuries that rapists, abusers, thugs, etc get. Beer-stealers get life, rapists get 6 years.....life they should get. I hope your Christmas is happier than previous.

Unknown said...

Hi Mandy
May the lord keep you and your children safe and that you may have a happy and peaceful life. I was a victim of Domestic Abuse nothing in comparison to what you and your children endured and just reading your story hits home how so many women feel trapped and helpless. I would love to help you with your campaign. God Bless

Unknown said...

Hi Mandy,

Admittedly I have not read most of your blog but (like many) I have been a fan of your son on X factor this season. Reading through some media reports I just wanted to say I am very touched by the character of your son and you. I have not gone through what you or your family have gone through in any way but nonetheless I just wanted to say how incredibly inspiring you both are. Thank you for sharing your story, your history as I imagine it must have been difficult to retell the past but I know that it would have helped so many others out there. I just wanted to send this note of encouragement. I know I will probably never meet the two of you so I just wanted to communicate how very touched I am simply by the way you all are tackling life. I am aware that this little message of mine may seem very superficial just from a 'fan' of your son, but I do not want that to detract from this message of encouragement for you, your son and your family.

As I have read a very small, little bit of your family's history from what the media has reported from Jahmene I humanly wish that you and your family sincerely did not have to go through that. But looking at what is now, what is here in the present, I thank God for what you are doing and what Jahmene has done and is still doing. I have to say what has touched me the most about your son is his visible overflowing of unconditional love for you and the relationship you both share. What has also incredibly touched me is his strength, his will to encourage others, his utter professionalism and above all, his inspiring character. What a beacon and role model he is to society. I believe this is a true testament to you as his mother as well. The strength you show will help others to be strong. The love you embody will teach others to love. The life you lead will inspire others to live.

You and your family deserve all of God's blessings. I sincerely pray for all the happiness upon all of you. God bless you and your family all the way from down here in New Zealand,

Jamuel

(and have a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year)